Death comes in an instant and changes our landscapes. Nothing is promised to be solid or to be steady. All we can do is learn from our mistakes, make better choices and love. Loving my brother is a choice I made, even if the manifestation of it was temporary. I am still glad I chose to love him and know him, even briefly. I'm better for it. I hope he was too.
For the last week or so, my mind has been shifted toward the pinnacle of Christianity - the death, burial and resurrection of Jesus Christ. The account in Luke is one of the most detailed and insightful, while the account of the prayer the Lord made in the Garden of Gethsemane is revelatory. My attention … Continue reading Just A Thought
This time last year I heard a sermon called "This Time Next Year" and my pastor (at that time) preached many things. I have to say they were true for me. They just didn't look the way I expected them to. I did not expect to quit my job six weeks later with no safety … Continue reading My Thoughts-10/16/18
Let's do a subject change from my family's current life events, shall we? There's plenty enough of that drama still continuing for me to touch base on it for months, if not years, to come. I believe I'm six or nine credit hours away from a master's degree. Yeah. Back in the day, I was … Continue reading Pareto Sounds Like A Fancy Sandwich
As I said in the previous post, I am still dealing with emotions. As an abuse survivor, it dredges up feelings - not really memories. Feelings of not being heard. Of being expected to live with someone else's issues at the expense of my family and myself. Outrage. Grief. Despondency. Even problems in my bedroom … Continue reading Still Dealing
This post is not going to be pretty. It will ruffle feathers. It will also be terribly long. Some will say I'm wrong for airing our laundry out in the streets. If you follow this blog in any capacity, you will know transparency is what I'm all about. Quite frankly, I don't like secrets. They … Continue reading Ugly Truth
Lord, I don't seem to have words. All I can do is sit still in your presence. Sometimes this looks like tears of release: joy, pain, awe. Sometimes it's silence, a patient waiting. You tell me to be still and know you are God, that You lead me beside still waters. I am not so … Continue reading Stillness