Psalm 18 has been my rock this week. There are so many snippets from this Psalm that have spoken to my heart and spirit, so many things that kept me …grounded.
To the faithful you will show yourself faithful,
to the blameless you show yourself blameless,
to the pure you show yourself pure,
but to the devious you show yourself shrewd.
You save the humble people
but bring low those whose eyes are haughty.
-Psalm 18: 25-27 (NIV)
This week found us immersed in challenges. Financial ones. Physical ones. Emotional ones.
We suffered job loss, but were rewarded with reconnection. Lack of sleep threatened to make us a bit more sensitive than usual, compounded by fear of the unknown and being allowed to choose trust. Most of the time, we chose to trust. Sometimes, we didn’t.
Yet every time I turn to the pages of Truth, that is, the Bible, I find God. I find His amazing goodness, His faithfulness, His loving care for me, even when I don’t do it quite right. His faithfulness to speak to us (my family and those bonded to us in friendship) has not relented.
Just this morning, I agonized over a choice to make. There was no condemnation when it was brought to my attention it was not the correct one…just a gentle reminder to trust and obey. My own tendency to agonize over what I did wrong, and my own agony over missed opportunity was not allowed because it was overshadowed by grace and forgiveness. As I write this, perhaps I was allowed that moment to more fully understand that grace is not due to my own actions, but by the goodness and mercy of the Father, driven by unrelenting love.
It was a challenge. Decisions, decisions, decisions and…idiocracy. It seems chaos wanted to prevail, yet the Lord led me back to Psalm 18:
You have delivered me from the strivings of the people – Psalm 18:43 (NKJV)
Yes, there is more to that verse, but that first line was/is revelatory. It let me know that no matter what, I don’t have to war with people. No one.
He trains my hands for battle;
my arms can bend a bow of bronze.
We have all been trained to do what we do as an occupation. How else could David have gone from a shepherd to a valiant warrior. And…he enjoyed is occupation. Don’t think so?
37I have pursued my enemies and overtaken them;
Neither did I turn back again till they were destroyed.
38 I have wounded them,
So that they could not rise;
They have fallen under my feet.
39 For You have armed me with strength for the battle;
You have subdued under me those who rose up against me.
40 You have also given me the necks of my enemies,
So that I destroyed those who hated me.
41 They cried out, but there was none to save;
Even to the Lord, but He did not answer them.
42 Then I beat them as fine as the dust before the wind;
I cast them out like dirt in the streets.
The Lord can not only teach you your occupation, but He can also prepare you for the occupational hazards of such. I began to find a little joy inside of the lunacy that is my work environment.
What I have learned this week is one word: Yield.
This walk is constant submission and yielding to the Lord. If you are attentive to what He has to say, He will speak.
This means carving out time to be with Him, and Him alone. If you are married or engaged, lemme say this: there is NOTHING like the strength your relationship gains from seeking Him together. It doesn’t matter who initiates, who is the better prayer warrior, or who has better Biblical insight. All that matters is that the two of you agree, that your decisions are made as one and that your heart is submitted to each other.
And that, friends, was the whole taco salad for me this week. When my husband and I got on the same page and sought the Lord together wherever possible, the things we were able to accomplish with the Lord defied logic. And still do.
Speaking of which, hub is outside waiting for me as I write this diatribe at work…SO I gotta go.
Be blessed this weekend. Be still and listen for the Lord. He WANTS to speak with you, to be intimate with you, to express love to you…even if you don’t know how to do it yourself yet.